October 17, 2014
A Shack in the Woods

So, there is this bit in the American Office where Stanley Hudson is describing why he invested in Ryan’s WUPHF.COM idea, and he describes that he would like to own a decommissioned lighthouse and live at the top of it. The best bit being that noone would know he lived there and if anyone ever discovered him there would be a big button in the lighthouse that when pressed launched the lighthouse into space.

I’ve always liked that idea.

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September 21, 2014


I’m pretty pleased with the 12th doctor

(Source: stonedpervert, via everything-s-permitted)

September 20, 2014
"We’re English. There’s no cure for that."

— Lars Iyer, Wittgenstein Jr. (2014)

August 22, 2014
Addictive Optimism

Three day weekend! I have the final story in my collection to write over the next three days. I have the flat to myself, there is a coffee shop down the road and the London heat has finally subsided.

Productively levels are looking good.

I have been in a very optimistic mood recently. This is strange for many reasons. The first is that I’m not that very good at most things, including feeling good about things and I’ve met disappointment so often that when we cross each other on an escalator s/he looks the other way and pretends not to have seen me because s/he sees me enough at their work. But I know s/he saw me. Where was I? And because I recently burned through David Foster Wallace’s biography. 

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August 22, 2014

Captain America is my favourite Avenger, for the record.

August 22, 2014
Peculiar Subjectivity, Sir Fratley and Writing Diary #Something

I once had a really silly thought. It was that Sir Fratley, the anthropomorphic rat-man Dragon Knight from the Square-Enix (then Squaresoft) game, Final Fantasy IX, was the most tragic character in fiction. I mean, I didn’t phrase it like that at the time. I was thirteen and my reactions to things that happened around me were a bit subdued and uncomplicated but I thought that the tale of Sir Fratley was incredibly sad.

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June 22, 2014
A dream within another dream

So I’m the throes of a love affair with Robert Bolaño at the moment. I’ve nearly finished reading his master statement 2666 and I’ve just finished his book of poems The Romantic Dogs

Both have hit me in that Kafka, ice axe to the chest, sort of way and both in very particular ways. The Romantic Dogs opens with the poem from which the collection takes its name and despite obviously being very much about Bolano’s life as an ex-Chilean revolutionary - I’d lost a county/but won a dream - it doubles as a moving poem for all those who feel like they are moving away from a time in their life when emotions or the experience of life was the most apparent and effecting. The time when poetry such as this worked its best on you. 

A dream within another dream.
And the nightmare telling me: you will grow up
You’ll leave behind the images of pain and of the labyrinth
and you’ll forget

and the collection ends with an equally touching piece of melancholy and joy with the poem With the Flies

Poets of Troy
Nothing that could have been yours
Exits anymore

But what I really wanted to talk about was his mammoth book, 2666. As it stands it is five different novels all rolled into one, the five stories circling around a prolonged string of copy cat and serial murders in the fictional Mexican city of Santa Teresa and the search for a German author named Benno von Archimnboldi. From each of these five stories six or seven others spring forth, from short stories from a murder victim or a long confession from a war criminal. These are, like the dreams, stories growing from other stories.

But above all, as I said above, it is a statement and there is a point near the end where a writer who has given up on writing lends, at a price, a typewriter to a writer who is just about to undergo the craft and it is here where a prolonged metaphor emerges describing writing and fiction and art being very much like a forest. In that forest you would find deep dark caves, towering oaks and small, delicate exotic flowers but to find these treasures you must wade through the mediocre, uninspiring trees and the common grass. The writer is talking about masterpieces being hidden by the common work of mediocre or copy cat writers. It is why the writer gave up the work and why he seems reluctant to sell the new writer the typewriter. 

It’s enough to make any writer reconsider the task and indeed there is some catharsis to the idea, as the ex-writer points out, to just reading. It’s a telling part of the story and something that has the sharp ring of truth to it. We’re all copy cats to our heroes and if we aren’t going to write Ulysses, In Search of Lost Time or The Trial, then why even bother starting? The answer of course lies in the The Romantic Dogs, because if we gave up on our dreams or leave the labyrinth and the pain of doubt then we would forget and we would grow up into the cynical non-writer who refuses to sell a typewriter to a new, hopefully one day masterful writer. 

February 8, 2014

J.M Coetzee does all the things people say Hemingway did. 

February 8, 2014
Trust Noone!

I think I only write on tumblr when I want to speak out-loud but to noone inparticular. 

So, I’ve been working on my novel for a few years now. I know its plot, it’s story, it’s characters inside and out and also, more importantly, I know the length it needs to be. Right now I’m re-writing a lot of scenes that were either first or second drafts from about this time last year and while the early chapters are sub-Wolfian, I came across a part today that I really liked. It described everything neatly when it needed to, profusely when it called for it and with with a fun, surrealist manner when it was describing something bureaucratically (it had this fun Kafka/DFW element to describing how it isn’t in a capitalist individual’s best interest to think of someone else.) It fact I liked it so much that I didn’t quite trust it as I had written

If I had written it two weeks ago I would think: Well done, me. That probably won’t need much more tidying up when you come back to that later. But I hadn’t written it two weeks ago, I had probably written it a year ago at best. I think a writer gets better with writing and reading and to think that I had achieved something a year ago before I had read so many books that had a great influence on me (V and Infinite Jest particularly) I can’t trust the piece… But it is good enough to not be completely re-written.

Ugh, writing is hard… 

October 30, 2013


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